I have started 3 days of work alr.
Suppose to be enjoying my off day on the FIRST weekend...
But sad to say, I am here, wasting my weekends away!

I want to blame him for this, and...
I hate him for his empty promises.
I hate him for being so selfish.
I hate him for spending so much time with his friends but he couldn't even take out one day of the week to spend it with me.

But when I calm down and think about it,
I realise whatever I hate him for is meaningless.
Because he would never understand where I am coming from.
Like what many people had said to me, "It takes two hands to clap"
It wasn't entirely his fault, and I cannot blame him for everything.
I have my faults too..
I feel like giving up...

There was once when we were quarrelling on the phone and he asked me to tell him about his good points.
I listed so many of his good points and made him speechless.
Till now I never forget any of his good points,
Till now I never forget how well he used to treat me but I didn't treasure his love then.
Never will I forget anything that has happened during our 8 months of r/s.
But right now how I feel really doesn't matter anymore.


Anyway, work is okay.
My job is not difficult, just that everyday I am doing the same thing in office.
I admit I have been very restless working in an office.
I am wondering if this job suits me.
Maybe yes maybe no.
It is still too early to say.



P/S: Happiness doesn't last!

♥ 7/05/2009 02:09:00 PM