Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Friday, May 26, 2006

YIPPES .
the holidays is here !
but still have to go back to sch for the first week .
ARGH . suck .
plus alot of homework .
why cant the school give me a break
without all these nonsense .
well , accept the fact
that i am sec 4
taking N level this year .
wadeva .

can someone bring me go CHIONG ?
i wan go chiong lehs .
and have fun .
so that i wun tink so much .
and i wun feel lonely in the night .
that means that he wun be in my mind .
i only went to chiong once .
to momo .
not bad lar , quite fun .

im happy with my lyfe now .
i dun love him .
i dun nid him .
telling myself this every now and then .

- 'wo yao kuai le :)
26.05.06 , 14.39
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♥ 5/26/2006 02:04:00 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

at net's hus now .
just now went to ktv with net , jus , rui :)
jus bring her fwens to join us for quite awhile .
she must be happy today . hees .
via came awhile too .
if we never broke off ,
22.05.06 is our six months .
but its the past .
i dun love him anymore .
neither do i nid him in my lyfe now .
im contented with my lyfe now ,
even without him .
i may not be happy with my lyfe now ,
mayb im not use to it .
but being with him ,
i will not be happy either
when this is the way he treat me .
its his loss
if he duno how to treasure me .
i hate it when i feel lonely and empty in my hart .
cos its the time when memories flashed back
and tears start to drop .
i guess its time that i really nid to get him out of my lyfe .
i feel so sick of the way he treated me .
and i felt really tired .
i felt like i was an idiot ,
being taken advantage of .
nbcb .
he did cor me .
i didnt answer .
i just stare at the phone when he called .
i duno why he called .
tink he knew about wad i wrote in the blog if anybody told him .
isit becos he wan to scold me
or explain to me
all about the gal .
den he can jolly well forget about talking to me .
wadeva it is ,
I DUN KARE .
in fact i should thank him ,
for making me stronger
and loving myself more .
wad i nid is just alittle
more of trust and support .

- 'WO YAO KUAI LE :)
21.05.06 , 03.04am
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♥ 5/21/2006 02:18:00 AM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

now i noe who's my real fwen .
real fwen dun do things behind my back .
cos its cor backstabbing .
yoo should roughly noe me and him de story .
and i still have feelings for him .
yet yoo go out with him behind my back ,
and i didnt even noe .
this is not the first time i believe .
pls , yoo are not being sociable at all .
this is called flirting .
like net , i dun trust people anymore .
except for my close ones .
why .
simply because i treated yoo like my fwen .
and i was treated back like an idiot .
this fwen of mine and that particular guy really reflects me .
yoo are so clever ,
but yoo use it in a wrong way .
i should give your acting two thumbs up .
stop your nonsense and cut that act out ,
before yoo lose all your fwens .
a piece of advice from me to yoo .
only stupid guys will fall into your trap .
they pity yoo .
they think we are the bad people .
and yoo are actually the good person .
how fake yoo are cans .
i wun waste my time to get real mad with yoo two .
wad for .
yoo tink i will be like last time .
crying like duno wad .
doing stupid things .
kip thinking of him ,
hoping he will come back to me .
are yoo surprised to see im not liddat now .
hey , i dun nid him anymore .
the shoes and clothes i worn before ,
yoo wan ?
den take them wit yoo
and flirt with it as much as yoo like .
and do wadeva yoo wan .
i sincerly give yoo two my blessings .
anything that has got to do with him
is his farking business .
nothing to do with me at all .
cos i guess im disappointed in yoo two .
and especially him .
and i had enough .

my results sarks .
real upset upon seeing my engish marks especially .
disappointed .
i always had high hopes in my english .
and i should have failed .
but luckily my teacher pulled me up i guess .
didnt noe wad when wrong in me .
and wad the hell i was thinking .
ya , my lyfe is really distracted .
i was like pass only 2 out of 6 .
and that 2 pass i didnt do well either .
and one of dem is english .
another one is chinese .
my class didnt perform well either .
we really have to buck up .
no more of this nonsense .
after so much that has happened ,
i told my mum i will work hard for my prelim and N level .
i wun bother so much about BGR .
i'll put dem aside for the time being .
now i find my studies more important .
net's words was right .
it has somehow knock me up .
and its time i reflect .
i learnt my lesson .
he's a bastard , another jerk .
IT MAKES ME HATE HIM MORE ONLY .
i felt so silly .
fancy me letting him make use of me .
i wan to thank the person who let me know all this .
if not i tink im still being used by him now .
that 'brother' of him is no better .
he jolly well noe what he say and do
behind me .
and with that farking bastard .
they cor themselves a man .
puiis to both of dem .
luckily i lost the trust in him long time ago .

and of cos ,
i learn to love myself more .
without him ,
i'll still be very happy .
simply becos
lyfe still goes on .
and people ,
my mood wun be good .
so dun provoke me ,
or i wun be nice at all .
but dun wori ,
i'll be jus so fine soon .
its time that i nid .

- wo yao kuai le :)
17.05.06 , 23.30 .
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♥ 5/17/2006 10:29:00 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

im at home now .
surprise to see me up here .
usually on sat ,
i wun be at home .
lyfe kinda boring nowadays .
duno why .
probably becos of him and studies .

i didnt go find him this week ,
not even today .
i really start to give up on him bit by bit .
tired ? yes i am .
he must be very happy
when he knows im giving up on him slowly .
tell yoo ,
im going to find a guy so much better than yoo ,
love me more than yoo do ,
who knows how to treasure me .
i try to cor him less nowadays .
and not to tink about him so much .
cos no matter wad i do ,
or everything i did ,
i still dun really stand a place in his hart .
so i start to ask myself ,
isit worth it .
i was so silly cans .
i miss those days .
no quarrels ,
no fight ,
and he treated me well .
so peaceful .
but very little of those days nor .
i wonder where the hell he is now ,
and wad he is doing .
im now living in the world of mine ,
the lala kuku papaya land . ha ..
my left hand , the scar part hurts .
sometimes suddenly .
why . net say mayb infection .
ugly hands , stupid me .
i bought this upon myself .

studies ,
im so sick of it .
didnt study or revise much .
understandable if i didnt do well .
could not focus .
felt distracted .
more into slacking .
still having fun .
how is my N level going to survive .
hais .
i tink i wun make it for my N .

just now slack at cwp :)
wit net and jus <3
my two dearies .
HAHAHA .
before that went to visit my grandmother .
poor she .

nowadays not so good mood .
got the craving of buying things and spending money .
:)
it cheers me up .
but i am not any rich girl .
im just a normal ordinary girl .
soon going to be broke .

- WO YAO KUAI LE :(
07.05.06 , 00.35 am
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♥ 5/06/2006 11:39:00 PM