Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Monday, December 17, 2007

I am back from batam!
Oh ya, me and him only.
Enjoyed only at the later part.
Glad he's able to find time to bring me there.
He's always giving me hopes, and then crashing it.
But he actually made his promise this time round:D

Anway, 3 days break from work.
Before going to batam, was at justin's and ahma's chalet.
Happy birthday to them!
Sorry was unable to stay for the second night.
But hope u guys enjoyed yourself.

Met feb in 13F.
He make me wait so long!
Finally, went there.
Bought tickets, then board the ship.
The silence between me and him made me teared.
The whole journey is like one hr.
Reached there and you can see guys staring at you, like as if they never seen girls in their entire life.
But im not afraid, i know he'll be there to protect me, no matter what.
He whined that i should not wear such short skirt cuz the guys will peep-.-"
And so i will not next time okay.

When i stepped into batam, it made me feel im like in johor.
The cements on the roads are coming off due to rainy weather and the road is so bumpy.
The security is not tight at all.
Have you ever seen four people to one bike?
Well, i witnessed it.
Scary, the kids are still very young only and its so dangerous.
Didn't took much pictures on the first day cuz my hp died off.

The food is not too bad.
Love their indo mee+egg.
He brought me to his working place, and take me to see the construction of the disco and hotel.
Now i get a idea of what he is doing there.
He also brought me to a small temple around that area.
After that go massage.
Comfortable but i cannot stand the itch when they massage my sensitive part.
Whenever i felt girly, i will move.
But overall it was good and i fell asleep when they massage my not-so-sensitive-part.
Haha.

At night, check in to hotel to rest alittle before going to our next destination.
You know I really wished i could go there as a status of his gf.
I really hugged him tight that night and my tears were uncontrollable.
Ya, I break down, I couldn't act like i was happy.
I wished time could stop there, or time could actually slow down so he won't leave me.
He's all i wanted for the night, indeed a memorable one with him.
What i can say is that if everything were the same in the past, loving him would be the most fortunate thing.
Too bad, i don't have much time with you already.

Cried enough, he asked me to dry my tears.
Then, brought me to a pub called 'No Name'.
Ordered drinks and chilled.
The pub is very different from singapore.
Its also like a club where there is dancefloor and people do danced as well.
Theirs is liveband singing R&B songs, and their vocals must be really good enough.
But they are well paid.
I get to see very very high people, feb said that they must have taken estacsy.
After that, he went to meet his bodyguard for supper.

Went back hotel around morning time already.
Slept and the next moring wake up around afternoon time.
Ate lunch and went to pick the monk up to go back singapore.
Reached singapore met up with DJ and his wife, and wen as well.
Went to catch a movie 'The Warriors'.
I dont really know how to appreciate such movie but being with them gives me a very warm feeling.
After movie went to have supper.
They having discussions so i went home after that.

That's about all.
I'll be going to batam on the 28 and 29th.
Looking forward to go there again.
Its late anyway.
Got to turn in soon.
Nights & with loves(:

I'll let the pictures take over!

I wished I could start everything over.

Never meant to be:(

The toilet is a luxury:D

The bed we slept in(:

On boarding of the ship, and i snaped the outside view.

Happy birthday to justin and my darling ah ma!

♥ 12/17/2007 12:39:00 AM

Friday, December 07, 2007

Hi dearies, its been quite some time since i blog.
Since im not working tml, shall update alittle.
No photos this time round cuz nothing to snap unless you want to see my workplace.
Have been working from 1st dec till 6th.
I would say my commission is not too bad for these 6 days.
But im kinda greedy so i demand more to reach my target!
Oh ya, love to work.
Got money, and can tire me out also. Good one!
My schedule is already quite fucked up, plus those last min work and paperwork piss me off. Part timer are always stand-by aren't they?
Well, want $ not? Then don't grumble so much lor.

Anyway, there's nothing much to blog about.
& one more thing, I miss my memories so much!
Plently of catching up to do.
There's a chalet on 25th-27th.
With my brothers and sch girls, its another catching up again!
Yay.

Also, i and feb aren't going well.
I don't own him anthing already, neither do he own me anything.
Cuz i used to take him for granted, now he take me for granted.
Fuck it!
Often recalled how nice & sweet he used to be when we just started dating.
Now, i think its because of too frequent break up and patch up, that our relationship has turned sour.

In the past he said this,
" I won't let anything happen to you, you know that."
Now, he said:
" Don't come and tell me all this, my father only knew about his father's death two week later.
Besides, he's not fooling around."
Noticed the difference?
Come on, it has nothing got to do with fool around!
If only i could go back to the past...
You wouldn't have said that.

Im still going to batam on the 28 and 29th.
Girls, anyone interested to go?
If he doesn't want to be our tour guide, then i'll find jason.
Im still interested to go to batam with him, and its only the two of us.
Unless he take the initiative to call me up.
Im seriously hoping for that.

Okay, shall turn in already.
Yawns.
Loves to all.
Nights!

♥ 12/07/2007 01:40:00 AM