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♥ 10/30/2007 01:53:00 PM

Oh dear! My practical was a gone case for me.
Failed.
I thought i could at least score for my practical.
But now i need my theory to pull me up instead.
AND my theory happens to be very weak.
SHITS.
I spent close to an hour for my physics,
but i didn't get my graph done.
I swear my eye hurts after doing up the five images.
It just a waste of my time.
Its so troublesome + im a slow worker.
How can i get it done within 45 mins!
Then chemistry,
I got stuck upon the first question.
With so little time left, I became anxious.
I had no choice but to call for help.
But e help wasn't of any help okay.
I didn't know what exactly to do.
So i just gave up the first question and move on to the rest of the question.
I heard the ans to the last question was zinc carbonate.
HAHA, i wrote aluminium.
Stupid right, a wrong guess i made.
Anyway, it's over.
No point crying over spilled milk.


My girls told me i was at fault.
So i actually send this msg at first.
" I don't mean to say i don't respect guys at all. Its just that you don't know why i said all that. I am very pissed off with guys. I know im very selfish, because i cant help being bias towards guys. I hope you get what i mean. Nights. "
So i called him the next day, wanting to talk things out.
He knew i prefer him using soft method on me so i would listen.
But throughout the conversation, he was using the hard method.
So i just kept quiet and listen.
He asked me not to keep quiet, so i said " the more i talk, the more wrong things i will say. So i rather keep quiet. "
He said he's not going to give in to me this time round. He's going to voice everything out. He finally pissed me off with this sentence: " Don't make everything sound like im the victim. I protested that i don't need him to pity me and he said he didn't mean that way. "
Mum came in and i shouted," Why u must come in and disturb? What u wan, I talking to him right. Why u cannot leave me alone and talk to him?"
I was already crying when i talked to him, after that i cried more badly so i hung his phone.
Mum comforted and hug me. Two T's: Touched and Thanks.
He did called back.
But this time i was mad already so i said i didn't want to talk to him and i hung up immediately.
He hated me to hang up his call, just like i hated him to raise his voice at me.
In the end, i send him this msg, " There's nothing more to talk already. I shouldn't have called you or hang on this relationship when it should have ended already. Don't use such hard tone on me, I dont take it. Good for you, you don't have to bear with me any longer. I'll take it that our relationship has ended this way. Bye. "
Our last conversation.


I do appreciate my girls' care and concern.
Feeling rather lost at this point of time he choose to leave me.
I am actually very upset over it but putting on a strong front.
But who actually know i teared every night thinking about him,
and i always wake up in the middle of the night to check my hp if he had called or sms me.
Now i always wake up to see what time it is.
So what, i still have to move on.
I have actually keep myself occupied to quit thinking about him.
I believe it's a misunderstanding like what my mum had said.
I said all those hurting words because at that point of time i was very bias towards guys.
I know he couldn't take my temper already so letting go may be a better choice.
But still there's a need to clear out the misunderstanding.
Maybe after my O's.
By the time we two should have already calm down.
He's a nice bf though he dosen't have much time for me, but somehow i felt the difference between him and other guys.
Thanks for everything.
But hey, you know why i said sisters are always more important than bf?
Because i will lose him someday, but not you girls.
A big THANK YOU to YOU GIRLS!


Today is nick's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHAY NICK!
Party-ing later on at dxo.
Heard its the last party?
But anyway, good time for me to go chilling and relaxing for the last time before my O's.
Its been a long time since i club..



Got to go study first.
Bye and MISSES!

♥ 10/20/2007 09:43:00 AM

I can never tolerate guys to shout at girls.
So i cannot tolerate my bf to shout at me, not even to raise his voice at me.
Please, women deserve some respect!
Only one in a thousand guy is different.
I know you are different, but you just shouted and i hated it very much.
Im really afraid of failure marriage.
I dont want to suffer like how my mum do.
Worst of all, the kids suffer as well.
I've seen so many types of guys and im sick of it, boo.
Can't stand those bimbos' who will die without a bf.


Catched e movie resident evil ytd.
I know i was making a fool out of myself at e cinema.
Sorry guys, i lost control haha.
And then came the wtfknnnbcb part.
You don't want $ can give me.
Tear away the $200 like as if you were fucking loaded.
Kicked the taxi driver's car and you scare him.
Why didn't the car just knock down your leg?
And xuan's friend was nice enough to pick us up.
It has got nothing to do with him &
stupid ahbengs wanted him to come back.
To hell you go.
I will only respect those paikias' whom i think they deserve my respect.
The others are just an eyesore to me. PUI!

I just complimented that luckily my bf is not like that.
& reached home called him big quarrel.
Waste my $ on the card for 1 hr 20 mins.
Thx ah.


Very very soon it's O level.
Very soon it will end.
That's when i will turn my life upside down(:
Its just that i know i won't do well for my o's.
Cuz i know how little hard work and effort i put in throughout the year.
Blame no one but MYSELF.
Its all about last minute work now.

First paper 18 oct ------ science practical.
Second paper 24 oct ------- science paper 3.
& it goes on.
Good luck to all O level peeps & me.
Jiayou!


Got to drown myself to sleep later on and quit thinking about him.
Nights to all!


Here's one pic at kenneth's chalet.



BYE!

♥ 10/14/2007 10:02:00 PM

okay. com is repaired, ready to use again.
evon asked me to blog, but i dont know what to write.
just entertain her only. haha!


hmmm, feeling very fustrated nowadays.
keep losing my temper.
im very tired after a long day at school.
intensive 2 hours lesson + remedial.
damn shag la.
still have to attend justMaths tuition.
anyway, i just came back from tuition only.
studying is killing my brain cells!


i'll challenge this girl.
she claims that she hit down us.
oh yeah? we shall see who is more capable!
dont have another asthma attack.
cuz i wont pity or feel guilty the next time round.
maybe i shouldn't even react in this manner.
i should be more matured.
shall see my mood when i see your fucking face.
do spam when you see this, or your friend are invited to spam also.


i miss my girls!
i miss clubbing!
i miss him!


i wished O's could end soon.
its a torture for me.
i want to work.
i want $$$.
i want to go batam.
i need to buy prom night dress!
i need to buy tons of things.
never-ending shopping.
and i need $ for all these luxury.
hehs.


gtg.
tml another long day at school.
nights & misses!

♥ 10/04/2007 10:08:00 PM