Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

i HATE all the bias ppl . my mum , GUYfrens . ARGH -
just now went to ahboy's bbq . take kare ahboy .
didnt join dem for the place where we watch sunrise .
fri went sentosa wit GIRLfrens dearie .
i was sunburnt , so pain cans .
bud fun .
and i saw SHAWN at cwp B1 , the guy who acted in i not stupid too !
he's so handsome and tall .
the two girls he was with seems familiar .
from fuchun primary ya .
should have go to bukit panjiang government high ,
den mayb i would have knew him .
the first time i saw him ,
he was with a guy also from fuchun primary .
wanted so much to take photo with him . net also ? LOL .
i called fiona and told her about this news .
i cant take my eyes off him . HAHAS .

- ni hai ai wo ma ?
i really do hate him .
BUD i miss his kisses and hugs , the warmth in it .
i saw him at ahboy's bbq .
the shirt he wore brought back memories .
when he fought and i sayang him ,
and that time before we went out , he wanted me to kiss him .
oh well , its the past .
actually didnt want to go to ahboy's bbq ,
bud in the end still went down .
odi , its not i wan yoo to beg me go down .
i just dun feel like going down .
yoo understand mahs , got reason de , bud yoo duno .
bud no point saying it out .
the point where yoo and des scold me ,
i feel so mistaken and upset . yoo noe ?
mingle here and there with people at ahboy's bbq .

sch very soon going to reopen . SIANS AR -
one week holiday only .
dun seems like a holiday to me .
i didnt went home for days , kaka .
after that its all about STUDY , STUDY , STUDY .
SCHOOL LYFE LORH . LESS TIME FOR BLOGGING .
mayb also good larh .
i wun tink so much , hais .
I TOLD MYSELF I WILL FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN YOO .

BIRTHDAY coming lers , NC-16 . hees .
boos .
LONELY BIRTHDAY -
without him .
a simple birthday greeting from him will do ?
will be just as happy ya ?
bud i still got my GIRLfrens darlinks .
i will still stay happy .
cheerio , no worries .

- myDESTINY `
KISSGOODBYE <3

♥ 3/19/2006 02:49:00 AM

Monday, March 13, 2006

fcuk - i didnt noe i was so stupid , shits . cheated by him ? yoo stead with me , yet your mind was with another gal . fcuk yoo lar . i knew yoo like her , bud i tot its after the break up . BUT I WAS WRONG , yoo actually crush on her when we were together . to think i trust yoo so much , to hell with yoo now . bastard , fucker . can yoo imagine how i felt when i knew about it ? break down for a moment . hais . this girl was my good fwen , sistar perhaps . dun ask me who she is , confidential . i dun blame this girl , mayb she duno anything about it ? it was him who had a crush on this girl first . wadeva - my mind is going to burst out soon . after that depression . will i hurt myself again becos uf him ? hais . im really stupid , i was kept in the dark until now . your whole hart was not with me when were together , im a failure right . yoo took a long time before i accepted yoo , and it ended up like this . wad do yoo expect me to say ? silent break-down . i cried so hard , so badly . the only thing i could do now . bud i duno if he still had a crush on her . i dun wan to noe that much either , it bring more sadness and tears only .

`myDESTINY -
kiss goodbye <3

♥ 3/13/2006 03:49:00 PM

im at somewhere in sembawang . dun wish to go home - so i came here . i dun understand my mum - disappointed . yoo and him quarrel , dun vent your anger on me . i hate him . fcuk yoo . i hate his face . i hate going home when he is around . wad do yoo wan marmi , yoo love him so much until this pathetic state . hais . den yoo two stay together , i rather stay out . quarrels , im sick and tired uf it . in fear uf yoo two quarrels . yoo two not sick ar ? goodness . bud yoo are still my marmi after all .

went to orchard with net , evon and rui . took neoprints . bought two tops , one from fresh imp , another from ampm . went to pub after that . odi and xiaver came mit us in pub . des was there too . i finally saw him . net , yoo are wrong . he dun love me anymore . he may feel guilty , but i dun wan becos uf this den he guilty . but it does not matter if he still love me - cos its the past . AND DUN WORI NET , i will trim my eyebrow , lol . anyway , i drank , cried . evon cried too . net is very upset . BECOS uf mothers . they dun understand us , seems like they dun trust us . and my mum , becos of that law , say this say that . expect me go home earlier . i like having fun outside - that's my character .

we all had a talk with des father after that , des went home . having comparism and ranking . we four - me , net , evon and rui . xiaver , sometimes only . des's father made very hurting and sarcastic remarks and comments on rui , which made her very upset . rui , dun mind wad he say ok . i noe he very straight-forward . just think that he talking craps . go in from one ear , den come out from another ear . hack kare lar . his mouth so like desmond . like father like son . mayb his father didnt mean it that way , he had express it in the wrong way perhaps .

net went home , cos tml she got lesson . i also have to go back to sch for coursework bud i decided not to go . sori ms ng . rui went home , she was upset and didnt have the mood to go anywhere . des's father drove me , von , xiaver and odi go the duno wher see sunrise . den he duno go wher . my second time going there . very cold lor there . sat down and crap there . crap alot uf things . cold and we dun wish to wait for sunrise . the first time at there i saw sunrise at the very last moment , when i was on cab . des's father came , den send evon back home , and then that's how i end up here . going home later , when that guy leaves my home . duno wad my mum will say and scold , but to my surprise , she haven cor me until now . duno wad happen . hais .

my birthday coming . sians , duno wan go wher . thinking of going those 18 and above de place chiong . but must got ppl bring in . duno can anot lehs . should drop this idea ? we'll see . i will sing myself the song , ' zhu wo sheng ri kuai le ' to myself that day , lol - lame . lonely birthday , bud nvm , i got my dearie dearest girlfwens . gees .

` one and only me -
` one and only him .
im sorry baby .
kiss goodbye <3

♥ 3/13/2006 07:53:00 AM