Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

HoHo!
9 more days and im free from BCBG !
8 more days im getting my first pay at BCBG.
den dec 30th i'll be getting my second pay from BCBG,
which is my pay im working in nov.
waited hell long for my pay !
maybe i'll miss working there.
and of cux got other reasons la.
HaHa!

tml outing with one of my few girls.
yeah!
hoping tml will be a fun day ,
and nothing will be there to obstruct it.
bringing net and jus for interview at banquet .
and we ALL can work together ,
together with the hilton family.
three cheers.
seems like tml got alot of programme lur.
partyworld, movie, steamboat, bitching, crapping, slacking, shopping ..
so long since i had time for all these .
i miss-ed it .
and now i busy working.
bo bian,
for the sake of money.
chalet this fri sat sun.
haven get my pay have to spend so much money liao .
jitao sian .
money money money !

tonight think alot of ppl going mos.
first party after O.
well, i really miss-ed it damn much.
wanting to club so much,
bud seems like i got a change in life already.
i used to say i'll go clubbing after my exams, N and all.
but now, im skipping it.
even tonight.
bud although i wun club that often anymore,
trust me ; i will still go clubbing .
its something tempting and i cant seems to resist.
i love night life and being a wild cat in da night.
its alot of fun and enjoyment i admit.
i break-free my troubles and worries at clubbing .
dancing, shaking and drinking throughout the night!
shake it mama shake it !
clubbing clubbing i'll be back .
but i hope i wun get addicted in it .
i wun wan this kind of life right ?

a change in target : im loving sunshine guys more!
they make me drool and stare .
Whaha ..
well, guys who can sing well melts my heart like how ..
that guy in " AI QING HAI " sang his songs .
woots.
haisya, wad u people thinking?
lol .

im getting fat !
i wan to slim down.
stop my itchy mouth from eating pls !

seems like this year hair colour is red .
why ?
cuz the O level people dye their hair red.
and its like everywhere i go.
abit sian sia.
question is : should i highlight and reborn my hair ?
at this moment of time ?
Argh.

hao la,
gtg sleep liao .
tml meeting at 12 .
hoping i wun be late ar.
nights everyone!
TATA and miz me ^^
time flies.
it 12.50am le, 22.11.06
I already forget this date 22.11.05 when we started dating.
its da past anyway .
i've got a new life nw .
and im much more happier.
bye peeps!

♥ 11/21/2006 11:46:00 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

off-ed from work .
slacked at home today.
ytd met up with net .
she seems down .
poor her .
everybody do have her family problems .
she's always been strong .
and i do hope it continues .
dun ever have that thinking of going back to the past u !
get it !
remember , u do it for the sake of yourself .
not for others to see it .
u are already an apple in our eyes .
u are not a burden at all !
dun let this thinking come across your mind .
so , live life to the fullest k .
prove it by earning big bucks to repay
and thank dem for everything they had given .
they are afta all ur family members .
lastly , u still got us .
those who really care for ya .
even if we cant do much .
we'll always be there to lend a listening ear ,
a shoulder for u to cry on ,
a helping hand to help u up .

now songting .
my xiaobaobei .
she's lost in love .
or i could say blind in love .
i feel she has lost her dignity and pride .
she's not the strong one i used to noe .
everybody do falls back i believe .
bud i'll give her time to stand up .
i want her to find back the usual her .
forget the past , start afresh .
dun let him ruin ur lyfe ,
for u can find a better one hu knows how to treasure u .
let him see the changes in u .
make him regret cux u no longer nid him anymore .
he's a useless guy ,
not worth ur love at all .
wake up and give up on him .
dun go back to him anymore !
i said so much ,
the rest is up to u .
no one can help u if u dun help yourself .
lead a better lyfe rather than now .
make this a lesson learnt .
i believe u can de !
cheer up alrights .
for those who are lost in love ,
these words may be able to clear ur thinking .

jux now i watch a show on channel u , 8.30 pm .
The show is " say i do "
i admire this girl for her courage .
she knew this guy for 10 years .
and have been admiring him for 5 years .
finally she did so much jux to confess his feelings to him .
bud this guy rejected her and said they will always be gud fwen .
sure sad de lor .
imagine waiting for years for this particular guy,
and this is the ans he gave,
will u not be heart-broken?
i wonder why girls can be so stupid .
i noe im not any better .
bud i noe i cant wait for that long .
for feelings do fade .
guys heart will change too .
dun let your heart take over your head .
swit talks are nice to hear ,
bud never will i believe in eternity .
i dun believe in all this bullshit .
so save the crap .

im really fretting over MONEY !
Argh .
its always money .
money, the root of everything .
regardless of good or bad .
This world is liddat .
Reality is wad we have to face !
damn it !

i dun understand my mum .
i really dun .
i love my mum ,
for i only have her to depend on .
without a dad and siblings ,
im am all alone .
tell me wad's love all about .
its blind .
shag .
did my mum ever spare a thought for me ?
fine , im still young .
so i cant interfere in adults r/s .
they wun want us to noe so much either .
does she noe how i feel and think ?
no she dun .
u tink im really happy ?
let me tell u im not .
i may be cheerful and crazy as usual .
bud this is how my lyfe works for now .
wad for staying upset when it cannot brighten up my day?
she got her own problems .
i got mine .
i cant help her too .
im jux as useless .
i've always been a disappointment i noe .
bud u think i wan it this way meh .
i hate this home .
i dread coming back .
cuz it brings back fear .
and all those bad memories .
it almost caused me to break down .
sorry, im unable to forget .
my mum dun understand this kind of feeling .
nobody does .
only myself .
i cant stay at rui hus forever too right .
she has already been too nice to let me stay at her hus .
im already like a burden .
hais .
well , suddenly i feel like leaving this home .
i dun intend to study anymore also .
feel like finding a stable full time job,
and providing for myself .
find a place to rent and live alone .
i noe its not easy at all .
life is never going to be easy .
say only ! hu duno how to say .
am i too selfish to say this ?
HAIS.

always a long post .
im really naggy .
got to get ready for bed .
cux tml still have to work .
yeah, i told veron i will be working until end of this month.
so nid to tolerlate until end of this month and im free.
bud still have to find other job lor .
not easy leh .
O level peeps also coming out to find job .
and they stand a better chance .
nvm, i'll be needing banquet job .
haha.
nights!
felt so much better afta blogging out .
TATA^^
misses .

♥ 11/14/2006 10:31:00 PM

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

cool !
today is my off day from work .
im now relaxing slacking rotting at hm .
hardly doing that nowadays .
working at BCBG isn't nice at all .
i dun enjoy .
neither do i love to work at there although its quite relaxing .
but i got no choice .
im enduring every moment out of it .
simply becus i nid money for everything i desire .
in fact i love money alot .
bud i cant simply wait for money to drop from the sky
or keep asking money from my mum right .
when i work ,
i finally understand how hard-earned money comes about .
time passes slowly when its relaxing .
jux becux i wan things i desire ,
so i work out for it .

went out with girlfriends last sun .
me, stella, rui, jocelyn, leeyun, wendy .
fun day i would say .
wanting more of it lur .
haha .
i enjoyed myself with them although i bought nothing .
Anyway , i feel
guys who can sing well really melts my heart .
why ?
cux i remember this place " AI QING HAI "
there's this guy who sing really well
and i got so attracted by his voice
unwanting to leave the place
that i dun even mind standing outside jux to listen .
i want to go there again !
but this time, i want to go inside and listen .
so i can get a better atmosphere of everything inside .

im awaiting for so many things .
; my girls could finish their O soon
so we could come out together once again and enjoy .
really missing them .
~ chalet with sch mates
i miss them too .
hoping we could have fun again .
# clubbing .
i so miss it that i almost forget how to dance and shake .
lol .
wanting to go there with so many ppl .
girlfriends .
sch mates .
guy friends .
biao jie and company . ( awesome bikers )
haha .
- quit BCBG and find another job .
maybe banquet is a choice .
* genting trip .
i want it so much .
but i duno if i should go .
how sad .
` rounding on bikes and cars .
i start to miss seating on bikes and cars .
= my first pay at BCBG .
its like so hell long to get it .
like i will never reach it :(
+ shopping and buying things .
wait till i get my first pay okay .
sian .

seems like i awaiting for so many things .
im really wanting it leh .
still got more lor .
but the mentioned ones are the top priority .
plus i nid a bf too lol .

i still here to wish all O level peeps
the best of luck for the remaining papers .
Jiayou jiayou !
you people can de .
hope my faith and confidence can keep you people going
and making the best out of it .

why do i only learn how to treasure when i lose it ?
den i start to regret .
wad's the point of regretting ?
can i bring back those times NO .
and i start to miss the times they use to treat me v good
when now i found they have changed
and are no longer by my side le .
everytime also liddat de .
im a failure la .
stupid and useless me .
boo !
fan la .
bud i still do hope there will be ppl by my side .

long post .
im that naggy .
get use to it haha .
now im going to do my things and watch tv after that .
what a day !
i want go vivo city la .
heard its a romantic place for couples .
sad case .
nvm ,
i'll go with my girlfriends .
i may love my gf's alot .
but get in mind , im straight !
hees .
TATA ^^
misses .

♥ 11/08/2006 05:35:00 PM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

damn it !
blogger got some problem just now
and i could'nt save it .
now i got to retype .
and trying to remember wad i wrote just now .

i duno why i suddenly wake up so early in da moring .
and here i am .
wad da hell is wrong with me ?

work-ed life sucks .
getting to dislike working at BCBG .
i fucking hate being accused alright !
when did those words came out from my mouth ?
when didnt i respect ?
oh well ,
because your rank is higher than me,
it gives you every right to say wad you wan to say about me ya ?
im just a part timer anyway .
i suddenly miss-ed sch .
and my dearie sch mates .
i miss those times .
when im at sch ,
i felt so eager to come out and work .
now im working ,
i miss sch .
wth .
but i nid money .
well ,
working life is liddat .
suffering in hell .
im working for others and getting my pay from them,
so wad for i complain so much .
so i'll be tolerating .
just for the sake i love money .
that's it .
i'll be working for BCBG until the last day of nov
and i'll say bye-bye to this job.
sick !

im getting fatter !
omg .
eating and eating non-stop .
i still wan my figure .
i wan to slim down .
oh ya ,
rui and stella also fat le .
cos they eat when i do !
haha .
bud im fatter la :(
how sad .

YEAH , going shopping with jocelyn this sun .
cya dear !
bud i haven got my pay leh.
only got banquet de .
$89 only -work for one day only .
good leh .
so happy to receive my first pay .
my hard-earned money .
haha .
was hoping stella and rui could join us .
see if they can change their off day to sun anot .

all da best to all O level candidates .
best of luck ; jiayou !
Gogogo .
afta that song liao lor ; enjoy till siao .
haha .

suddenly got the urge to say
i love my mum.
- she's the one who keeps me going , always giving me the best although i always disappoint her . she's not having any good life so i hope to give her one next time :)
i love my ahma.
- she dotes on me alot among her other grandchildren. Although she nags alot,
i noe she meant well and lastly she cooks great food !
- i love great fwens around me .
thx god for giving me wonderful angels from heaven .
and i mean TRUE fwens .
coz i find that there are so many fake people here and there
so BEWARE !
- bf ; yet to be found . haha .
evil grins*
- haisya , i just love everyone who is true .

enough of crapping .
gtg get ready for work SIAN .
tata ^^
misses :]

♥ 11/02/2006 10:19:00 AM