zui jin bi jiao fan.
bi jiao fan.

i juz dun wan any arguements,
or any disputes to cause any unhappiness.
between anyone.

im always the cause out of it.

fri ktv session.
after which, visit to jon hus.
buffet.
crapping.
gambling.
blah blah blah..
enjoyed bah.
ton at jocelyn dearie hus.
her hus was so comfortable so i slept well.
hurs.

sat weili hus.
same old procedure.
and so on.
den to marcus hus.
drinking session again.
im right in da mind this time.
had a good sleep cuz liqour make me go round.
stop my mind from thinking so much.
a moment of instant enjoyment.
hidden it was emptyness.
wake up den slack.
evening time mahjong session.
getting addicted to mahjong.
lastly drag myself back to the dark.
somewher i wish i neva had to go back.

this is the year of ZHU.
fuck.
the more i gamble, the more i lose money.
play mahjong lose.
blackjack also lose.
overall, lose $100 plus. DIAO.
sian nor.
tot can earn more money.
when start to win, dun wan retreat.
in da end lose all.
suay lor.
maybe becuz i always quarrel with pig.

this wed benho's and kent's birthday.
sun willy's birthday.
if they are not going, i dun think i should go.
no reason to go.
rui's and leeyun birthday coming up soon.
headache sia.

monday blue..
this week alot of tests.
wed SS,
thu maths and chem,
fri physics.
FAN ar.

kill me.

TATA^^

♥ 2/26/2007 01:39:00 PM

happy chinese new year to all.
to me, i didnt enjoy my new year.
SO, lousy new year.
rather sad.
family gathering and reunion dinner, red packets, visting, eating, movies, bytching and etc
for new year's life.
afta which night life.
know why i enjoy my night life so much.
cuz it can temporary cure the emptyness inside my heart.
so i wun feel bored and lonely.
im playful wild and rebellious.
and this cant get out of my way.

typical guys make me very sian.
argh.
flirt like nobody's business.
grab and go.
omg.
girls do not have any place in their heart.
they dun shine and worst still,
being treated like shit.
only those attractive one that can catch their attention.
dots.
fuck you.
enough of these craps.
clubbing guys go hook your fish lar.

wad a life i've got.
sick and tired.
when can it ever stop?
and make my life peaceful without fears and all.
always problems.
here and there.
one after another.
leaving me to overcome it.
in da end, i became a burden.
hell.
no ending.
emo.

back to sch.
i nid to buck up.

TATA^^
dead within.
i start to cry in da night.

♥ 2/22/2007 03:15:00 PM

mother fucker.
dun let me hav the chance eh.
i make sure to make you pay you back double.
im sure to screw you cb.
making my life difficult right.
causing my mum to lose trust in me,
causing a huge quarrel with between us.
landing me in such a pathetic state.
it hurts me alot to see my mum nt trusting me
and worst, not standing on my side.
and and obstructing my sec 5 journey.
just you wait!


moodless for anything-


valentime day tml.
happy valentime to all!
love everybody who loves me.
no bf nvm,
no roses, lonely val without hugs and kisses.
no admirer, no candle light dinner.
very sad to witness it tml.
but im not tied down,
i got you girls and friends by my side is more than enough.
when im faced with troubles,
i noe who really cares, who really stand by me.
thanks so much.
i really appreciate it.
hugs.

TATA^^
dead within.
meaningless.

♥ 2/13/2007 11:02:00 PM

okay, IM LOVING NO ONE alright.
single is still the best.
no one in mind, its juz my own thinking.
its just meant to be a joke, something im saying it for the sake of saying it.
HAPPY?

im getting rather stressed up with studies.
cant seems to cope well enough.
failed most of the tests.
after all, N and O level is really a big gap.
sometimes i thinking of giving up.
but i always try to pull myself up.
the stress is really killing me. argh
i dun destest maths.
but i duno why i cant seems to do well.
maybe its a lack of practice.
for science, cant seems to do well also.
like i've got no basic foundation.
worst still, SS and history is all about memory work.
and my memory is like damn freaking lousy.
for english, i expect better for it.
mt, i failed this time round. sad case for me.
hoping i will do better next time.
F&N, i will try to do well for my coursework this yr.
aiming high.
hoping the theory part wun disappoint me.
it really takes alot of hard work and effort indeed.

pardon me for complaining about my school life.
cuz i am really vexed.
i will complain more in future.
come on, this is only the month of feb.
haha.

tml is the day where the O level people are getting their results.
the survival or death part.
guess you all are feeling nervous so CHILL alright.
i noe its not about last min work.
so no point brooding over it le.
you will do well means you will do well de.
wad done cannot be undone.
there is always another route for you to choose.
dun stress.
making me worried and anxious for you all also.
im talking as if i got the experience liddat.
nvm, next year me liao.
your turn to say to me.
i noe how u all feel.
cuz i got the feel during N level.
only afta i knew i passed, i felt relieved.
anyway, GOOD LUCK and ALL DA BEST.
girls, guys, friends, peeps or whoever connected to me,
msg me your results.
TATA^^
misses:)

♥ 2/08/2007 04:00:00 PM

my last weekend sucks.
spoil my mood.
moodless.
today monday blue.

fri-
wendy's bbq didnt turn out as i expected.
i noe she's unhappy and upset over some things.
cheer up girl.
she cheered up only after we girls played games,
and opening of her presents.
hope you like it.

sat -dxo
piss me off.
Firstly, i duno wher the hell fake tickets came about.
The management is so poorly done. not organised, not responsible.

Secondly, the bouncer so damn fucking guai lan.
Threw away the guest list names just becuz he got so fucked up.
A kind hearted guy see us kelian so gave us the tickets to enter but we have to queue just like those buyers.
Bouncers quarrel and shout with people like nobody's business.
Almost pick up a fight with people who are unhappy with the bouncers.

Thirdly, i got in not long ago.
And i saw someone with a girl with close actions. Should be he just knew her at clubbing that day. Cuz i never seen her before. Guys always grab girls this way dun they? Nvm, i had my revenge. i was with another guy when he saw me. But the difference is i already knew this guy. we were purely just friends, no close actions to prove anything. I can flirt like how you guys do. Is not i jealous or whatever. Are you trying to prove to me that guys go clubbing and will behave in this manner? Then how you want me to trust guys?

Fourth, being very fucked up already.
i was caught drinking and being banned for going inside.
Bouncer was so black. Could not see him under the lights. The next moment saw his white teeth and out i go!

Oh great, there goes my night life.
spoiler! Ruin my day!

But luckily i met a gentleman i would say.
willing to accompany me throughout the night, when im already so shag.
Save my day of boredness.
Thanks for the night!
How nice of you.
I may consider someone who is a real gentleman lol.

Duno how i should spend my valentime day this year.
No bf, nothing.
Mabye should stay at home alone.
haha.
Maybe i should get one just for that particular day will do.
Someone to spend that day with me, at least got memories.
i got one in mind now nia HEHE.
but i noe its not possible at all.
think too much liao.
i change targets fast enough.
but if i got the chance i want to see how sweet he can be GEES.

gtg.
tired.
TATA^^
loves:)

♥ 2/05/2007 02:25:00 PM