Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Omg omg.
Results will be out on 24 jan, this thu!!!
Why must it be on my work day?
Why not on my off day like 21st, or 25th or the 28 of jan!!
Now, i have to earn one less working day:(

Not much feelings, rather.
Not very scared or nervous.
Maybe the day before or on the day itself, i'll start to develop these feelings then.
Doubt i will do well, as expected of last minute studying.
You can say im someone with no confidence.
Cuz im not born smart but im really lazy when it comes to studying.
And so i am weak in my studies.
Don't know how i will react if i failed.
Then seeing people with good results and smiling faces, i'll just shut up and emo myself if not people will come and ask you how did you fare.
If results good, can be proud. If not, just say not good and walk away.
Haven't plan what im going to do if i failed, and mummy keep nagging argh!
I think about him more than i think about my results, damn.
You know, im like someone with no future, not sure about what i want to be in the future and worst of all, not worried at all!
Unlike him...

Anyway, good luck to myself & all who are taking back their O level results(:

Oh ya, he won't be in sg on his birthday:(
I remembered i once told him i will celebrate his birthday for him this year since all his past birthdays are so simple.
Its not because i don't want anymore, its because im not given this chance.
I lost my courage to call him up or even talk to him.
But nevertheless, i hope he will have a great reunion with him family.
I will be working on valentime's day.
Its meaningless to celebrate this day without him.
I will not spend this day with someone i don't love, I rather work.
Then, i'll start to envy those who send flowers to their gf.
Flowers = Passion.
If only he will .... I swear i will cry.

Would not be working all the way till 27.
Im rotting man.
Pay day on the 28th, after that can do shopping for CNY and stuffs! WEE:D
And I've got a lappy now, double WEE :D
Mummy bought it and she's always nagging that i don't use the lappy too long.
But i can't connect it to the internet, damnit.
So meanwhile i got hooked on to the laptop watching devil beside you(:
Okay, that's all about what i want to blog.
Nights~
I love all:P

♥ 1/22/2008 02:34:00 AM