Don't ask me how i fare for my O level results.
Cuz i F-A-I-L-E-D big time:(
I remembered i didn't reply to most of them who asked me about my results, not even my cousins.
I guess i expected it.
Thought i wanted to retake my O's.
But i guess i shouldn't waste one more year.
My vp was right.
If i passed, it will be good. But what if i don't?
In school, I couldn't even study well with the help of teachers.
At home, it will be worst cuz i will be studying alone!
You think i have that much determination?
I have no where to go now, so i can only take up private diploma.
But it certainly cost alot of $$$ !! ARGH !!


Im definetly not here to blog about my results.
I am very disappointed when he didn't ask about my results.
It shows how much he didn't cared.
But little did i know he's actually facing alot of problems...




Ytd when i knew that the person they wanted to look for was actually you, my heart sank.
But your bodyguard saved you.
Pretty upset to hear about what have happened but i know you are more upset than anybody else.
Because he grew up with you and that he's rather close to you.
I thought i shouldn't have cared for you anymore since i felt you don't love me anymore but i was wrong.
I couldn't help worrying about you when i knew you might face danger.
What if the person come back and find you...
I always find myself useless when i cannot do anything to help you.
Like in the past when we are tgt, you had problems and the only thing i could do was to comfort you.
Now i didn't even dare to call you up and ask if you are fine.
But no matter what i pray that nothing will happen to you, wen, DJ and kenneth tan.
Cuz i know how important they are to you, especially your two bros.
I am willing to shorten my life to exchange for your safety and i mean it...


Horses are really the unlucky batch this year:(


Bye!

♥ 1/27/2008 12:31:00 AM

Omg omg.
Results will be out on 24 jan, this thu!!!
Why must it be on my work day?
Why not on my off day like 21st, or 25th or the 28 of jan!!
Now, i have to earn one less working day:(

Not much feelings, rather.
Not very scared or nervous.
Maybe the day before or on the day itself, i'll start to develop these feelings then.
Doubt i will do well, as expected of last minute studying.
You can say im someone with no confidence.
Cuz im not born smart but im really lazy when it comes to studying.
And so i am weak in my studies.
Don't know how i will react if i failed.
Then seeing people with good results and smiling faces, i'll just shut up and emo myself if not people will come and ask you how did you fare.
If results good, can be proud. If not, just say not good and walk away.
Haven't plan what im going to do if i failed, and mummy keep nagging argh!
I think about him more than i think about my results, damn.
You know, im like someone with no future, not sure about what i want to be in the future and worst of all, not worried at all!
Unlike him...


Anyway, good luck to myself & all who are taking back their O level results(:



Oh ya, he won't be in sg on his birthday:(
I remembered i once told him i will celebrate his birthday for him this year since all his past birthdays are so simple.
Its not because i don't want anymore, its because im not given this chance.
I lost my courage to call him up or even talk to him.
But nevertheless, i hope he will have a great reunion with him family.
I will be working on valentime's day.
Its meaningless to celebrate this day without him.
I will not spend this day with someone i don't love, I rather work.
Then, i'll start to envy those who send flowers to their gf.
Flowers = Passion.
If only he will .... I swear i will cry.




Would not be working all the way till 27.
Im rotting man.
Pay day on the 28th, after that can do shopping for CNY and stuffs! WEE:D
And I've got a lappy now, double WEE :D
Mummy bought it and she's always nagging that i don't use the lappy too long.
But i can't connect it to the internet, damnit.
So meanwhile i got hooked on to the laptop watching devil beside you(:
Okay, that's all about what i want to blog.
Nights~
I love all:P

♥ 1/22/2008 02:34:00 AM

6 Jan '08, towned with my two bestie(:
Bought two dresses from jp, one for CNY.
Its rather short, so i need to go with leggings.
Need to buy leggings soon.
Love the clothes from there.
Style and fashionable.
And it has got a few ways to wear it.
I like to be different and you can hardly see people wearing it outside.
Although you won't get attracted to the shop at your first sight,
Trust me, you'll like it when you try it on:P
Plus the designer will help you to match your clothes really well, something that will really look good on you.
But the price is quite expensive too.


Camwhoring session:D











Went to net's house after that.
Discovered something shocking!
Why are all good guys either broke, married or gay?
Plus he's good-looking.



Thu, 3rd Jan '08, celebrating ken's 18th birthday!




Ignore the pimple on my face!




Brothers( Jeremy,Eric,Marcus,Kendrick&Vennon )





Sisters( Twins&Me )





Our group photo at K-box(:



On chen yee's birthday:D



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE TWO JAN BABIES, KENDRICK AND CHEN YEE!
They are 18th already, happy liao lor.
Nvm, i'll turn 18 in another three months time:D
Wonder how i should celebrate my 18th birthday.
I hope i can make it a special 18th birthday(:
I don't want something simple like ken and chen yee's birthday.
But wanting something special, it will sure be costly.
Like last year bbq, mummy certainly spend alot on my birthday.
I need to start saving up man!




Anyway, my name tag is done!


And its my dearest net playing the guitar!




Anyway, his birthday is coming soon also.
I wished i could be there to celebrate his day with him.
Just like how much i wished he would be there too on my birthday.
But i know on his birthday he'll most probably be in jakata, that means i won't be able to surprise him:(


And now, i need to get some sleep.
Cuz im working morning shift at bugis tml.
Nights and MISSES to all my loved ones(:

♥ 1/12/2008 02:20:00 AM

Firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!
Its the arrival of 2008.
In this new year ahead, i wish all of my family&friends with good health and happiness!
But sadly, i didnt enjoy my new year.
Cuz we got screen by the police, my friend got handcuff and brought back by the police.
What i wanna say is when something happen to you, you'll know where are your real friends and how important you are to ur bf.
This year town is like celebrating deepavali, not many chinese seen.
Didn't stay there for long since im so unlucky on the first day of 2008.
I really hope i won't be so unlucky for the rest of my 2008 although horses seems to be the most unlucky batch in 2008:(
I need to do some praying, I hope everybody will be SAFE.
Lonely new year eve, with no one to acc me watch fireworks.
When can i find a suitable one to bring me go?


22 nov, Jus's concert, well done Jus!




Her love.


Sweet right! Happy for her that she has found happiness:D





See how contented i am to receive flowers!


Actually lend jus's concert flowers to act like lessie presenting it to me:D


Memories there to support her, loves(:




24 dec, christmas countdown @ evon's house.
Im glad there's memories around(:
Here are our group photos:D











Anyway, Im back from the batam trip on the 28&29th.
Enjoyed. Be it the massage, the club, the seafood & the food.
I came back with sore eyes and sore throat.
Everything is like so cheap in batam.
Bought one ORGINIAL POLO tee in batam.
Im craving for nano sweets now, when actually i didn't like it in the first plae cuz it taste like ginger.
Another thing is that we are so overly protected in batam.
Everywhere we go, feb and his bodyguard will be following us.
In club, another police protecting us.
Its the first time i touch a REAL gun in there!
Imagine a gangster and a police working together to protect us, cool right!
And feb's bodyguard is damn cute alright:D
But i really wanna thank them for taking out their time to acc us.
Not sure if i'll be attending their disco grand opening, maybe i will maybe i won't.

I wished u would tell me u are doing all this just for me.
I know u won't let anything happen to me in batam, thank u.
I really wished I had treasure u more in the past, so i won't have to lose u now.
I wished u didn't changed, cuz i felt u don't love me already.
I missed all those sweet moments spent with you.
I've always felt insecure, cuz i know you place your career above me that u don't even realised how much u have neglected me.
Im letting u go but it doesn't mean that i dont love you anymore when in fact i do..
But, its just that im giving you time to think.
He's one i never regreted loving.
I just pray that he will take care of his health.
All i wanted is him to be in good health and that their business will prosper.

I'll let the picture do the talking.
Or can read up rui's blog to know more about the batam trip and how i chase for the $6 indo mee and donuts.
He just left it there on the ship, so i want to get it back for him.



Camwhored in the hotel:D






Dont u think wei's and xuan's mum looks very young? (right-hand corner)


Btw, she's only 33!



The place we had our seafood:D










That's for all.
Nights!
Im working tml.
LOVES.

♥ 1/01/2008 10:23:00 PM