Oh dear! My practical was a gone case for me.
Failed.
I thought i could at least score for my practical.
But now i need my theory to pull me up instead.
AND my theory happens to be very weak.
SHITS.
I spent close to an hour for my physics,
but i didn't get my graph done.
I swear my eye hurts after doing up the five images.
It just a waste of my time.
Its so troublesome + im a slow worker.
How can i get it done within 45 mins!
Then chemistry,
I got stuck upon the first question.
With so little time left, I became anxious.
I had no choice but to call for help.
But e help wasn't of any help okay.
I didn't know what exactly to do.
So i just gave up the first question and move on to the rest of the question.
I heard the ans to the last question was zinc carbonate.
HAHA, i wrote aluminium.
Stupid right, a wrong guess i made.
Anyway, it's over.
No point crying over spilled milk.


My girls told me i was at fault.
So i actually send this msg at first.
" I don't mean to say i don't respect guys at all. Its just that you don't know why i said all that. I am very pissed off with guys. I know im very selfish, because i cant help being bias towards guys. I hope you get what i mean. Nights. "
So i called him the next day, wanting to talk things out.
He knew i prefer him using soft method on me so i would listen.
But throughout the conversation, he was using the hard method.
So i just kept quiet and listen.
He asked me not to keep quiet, so i said " the more i talk, the more wrong things i will say. So i rather keep quiet. "
He said he's not going to give in to me this time round. He's going to voice everything out. He finally pissed me off with this sentence: " Don't make everything sound like im the victim. I protested that i don't need him to pity me and he said he didn't mean that way. "
Mum came in and i shouted," Why u must come in and disturb? What u wan, I talking to him right. Why u cannot leave me alone and talk to him?"
I was already crying when i talked to him, after that i cried more badly so i hung his phone.
Mum comforted and hug me. Two T's: Touched and Thanks.
He did called back.
But this time i was mad already so i said i didn't want to talk to him and i hung up immediately.
He hated me to hang up his call, just like i hated him to raise his voice at me.
In the end, i send him this msg, " There's nothing more to talk already. I shouldn't have called you or hang on this relationship when it should have ended already. Don't use such hard tone on me, I dont take it. Good for you, you don't have to bear with me any longer. I'll take it that our relationship has ended this way. Bye. "
Our last conversation.


I do appreciate my girls' care and concern.
Feeling rather lost at this point of time he choose to leave me.
I am actually very upset over it but putting on a strong front.
But who actually know i teared every night thinking about him,
and i always wake up in the middle of the night to check my hp if he had called or sms me.
Now i always wake up to see what time it is.
So what, i still have to move on.
I have actually keep myself occupied to quit thinking about him.
I believe it's a misunderstanding like what my mum had said.
I said all those hurting words because at that point of time i was very bias towards guys.
I know he couldn't take my temper already so letting go may be a better choice.
But still there's a need to clear out the misunderstanding.
Maybe after my O's.
By the time we two should have already calm down.
He's a nice bf though he dosen't have much time for me, but somehow i felt the difference between him and other guys.
Thanks for everything.
But hey, you know why i said sisters are always more important than bf?
Because i will lose him someday, but not you girls.
A big THANK YOU to YOU GIRLS!


Today is nick's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHAY NICK!
Party-ing later on at dxo.
Heard its the last party?
But anyway, good time for me to go chilling and relaxing for the last time before my O's.
Its been a long time since i club..



Got to go study first.
Bye and MISSES!

♥ 10/20/2007 09:43:00 AM