Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

off-ed from work .
slacked at home today.
ytd met up with net .
she seems down .
poor her .
everybody do have her family problems .
she's always been strong .
and i do hope it continues .
dun ever have that thinking of going back to the past u !
get it !
remember , u do it for the sake of yourself .
not for others to see it .
u are already an apple in our eyes .
u are not a burden at all !
dun let this thinking come across your mind .
so , live life to the fullest k .
prove it by earning big bucks to repay
and thank dem for everything they had given .
they are afta all ur family members .
lastly , u still got us .
those who really care for ya .
even if we cant do much .
we'll always be there to lend a listening ear ,
a shoulder for u to cry on ,
a helping hand to help u up .

now songting .
my xiaobaobei .
she's lost in love .
or i could say blind in love .
i feel she has lost her dignity and pride .
she's not the strong one i used to noe .
everybody do falls back i believe .
bud i'll give her time to stand up .
i want her to find back the usual her .
forget the past , start afresh .
dun let him ruin ur lyfe ,
for u can find a better one hu knows how to treasure u .
let him see the changes in u .
make him regret cux u no longer nid him anymore .
he's a useless guy ,
not worth ur love at all .
wake up and give up on him .
dun go back to him anymore !
i said so much ,
the rest is up to u .
no one can help u if u dun help yourself .
lead a better lyfe rather than now .
make this a lesson learnt .
i believe u can de !
cheer up alrights .
for those who are lost in love ,
these words may be able to clear ur thinking .

jux now i watch a show on channel u , 8.30 pm .
The show is " say i do "
i admire this girl for her courage .
she knew this guy for 10 years .
and have been admiring him for 5 years .
finally she did so much jux to confess his feelings to him .
bud this guy rejected her and said they will always be gud fwen .
sure sad de lor .
imagine waiting for years for this particular guy,
and this is the ans he gave,
will u not be heart-broken?
i wonder why girls can be so stupid .
i noe im not any better .
bud i noe i cant wait for that long .
for feelings do fade .
guys heart will change too .
dun let your heart take over your head .
swit talks are nice to hear ,
bud never will i believe in eternity .
i dun believe in all this bullshit .
so save the crap .

im really fretting over MONEY !
Argh .
its always money .
money, the root of everything .
regardless of good or bad .
This world is liddat .
Reality is wad we have to face !
damn it !

i dun understand my mum .
i really dun .
i love my mum ,
for i only have her to depend on .
without a dad and siblings ,
im am all alone .
tell me wad's love all about .
its blind .
shag .
did my mum ever spare a thought for me ?
fine , im still young .
so i cant interfere in adults r/s .
they wun want us to noe so much either .
does she noe how i feel and think ?
no she dun .
u tink im really happy ?
let me tell u im not .
i may be cheerful and crazy as usual .
bud this is how my lyfe works for now .
wad for staying upset when it cannot brighten up my day?
she got her own problems .
i got mine .
i cant help her too .
im jux as useless .
i've always been a disappointment i noe .
bud u think i wan it this way meh .
i hate this home .
i dread coming back .
cuz it brings back fear .
and all those bad memories .
it almost caused me to break down .
sorry, im unable to forget .
my mum dun understand this kind of feeling .
nobody does .
only myself .
i cant stay at rui hus forever too right .
she has already been too nice to let me stay at her hus .
im already like a burden .
hais .
well , suddenly i feel like leaving this home .
i dun intend to study anymore also .
feel like finding a stable full time job,
and providing for myself .
find a place to rent and live alone .
i noe its not easy at all .
life is never going to be easy .
say only ! hu duno how to say .
am i too selfish to say this ?
HAIS.

always a long post .
im really naggy .
got to get ready for bed .
cux tml still have to work .
yeah, i told veron i will be working until end of this month.
so nid to tolerlate until end of this month and im free.
bud still have to find other job lor .
not easy leh .
O level peeps also coming out to find job .
and they stand a better chance .
nvm, i'll be needing banquet job .
haha.
nights!
felt so much better afta blogging out .
TATA^^
misses .

♥ 11/14/2006 10:31:00 PM