Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not to.

Monday, March 13, 2006

im at somewhere in sembawang . dun wish to go home - so i came here . i dun understand my mum - disappointed . yoo and him quarrel , dun vent your anger on me . i hate him . fcuk yoo . i hate his face . i hate going home when he is around . wad do yoo wan marmi , yoo love him so much until this pathetic state . hais . den yoo two stay together , i rather stay out . quarrels , im sick and tired uf it . in fear uf yoo two quarrels . yoo two not sick ar ? goodness . bud yoo are still my marmi after all .

went to orchard with net , evon and rui . took neoprints . bought two tops , one from fresh imp , another from ampm . went to pub after that . odi and xiaver came mit us in pub . des was there too . i finally saw him . net , yoo are wrong . he dun love me anymore . he may feel guilty , but i dun wan becos uf this den he guilty . but it does not matter if he still love me - cos its the past . AND DUN WORI NET , i will trim my eyebrow , lol . anyway , i drank , cried . evon cried too . net is very upset . BECOS uf mothers . they dun understand us , seems like they dun trust us . and my mum , becos of that law , say this say that . expect me go home earlier . i like having fun outside - that's my character .

we all had a talk with des father after that , des went home . having comparism and ranking . we four - me , net , evon and rui . xiaver , sometimes only . des's father made very hurting and sarcastic remarks and comments on rui , which made her very upset . rui , dun mind wad he say ok . i noe he very straight-forward . just think that he talking craps . go in from one ear , den come out from another ear . hack kare lar . his mouth so like desmond . like father like son . mayb his father didnt mean it that way , he had express it in the wrong way perhaps .

net went home , cos tml she got lesson . i also have to go back to sch for coursework bud i decided not to go . sori ms ng . rui went home , she was upset and didnt have the mood to go anywhere . des's father drove me , von , xiaver and odi go the duno wher see sunrise . den he duno go wher . my second time going there . very cold lor there . sat down and crap there . crap alot uf things . cold and we dun wish to wait for sunrise . the first time at there i saw sunrise at the very last moment , when i was on cab . des's father came , den send evon back home , and then that's how i end up here . going home later , when that guy leaves my home . duno wad my mum will say and scold , but to my surprise , she haven cor me until now . duno wad happen . hais .

my birthday coming . sians , duno wan go wher . thinking of going those 18 and above de place chiong . but must got ppl bring in . duno can anot lehs . should drop this idea ? we'll see . i will sing myself the song , ' zhu wo sheng ri kuai le ' to myself that day , lol - lame . lonely birthday , bud nvm , i got my dearie dearest girlfwens . gees .

` one and only me -
` one and only him .
im sorry baby .
kiss goodbye <3

♥ 3/13/2006 07:53:00 AM