im here tu blog . so long didnt blog liaos . didnt haf the time . well , remember i once sae i will leave home again if i continue tu haf dis kind uf family problems . yep , i did it again the last week . i reali cant stand this hus . i cant wait tu leave dis house . wad kind uf home is this ! i simply dun wish tu go home . i dun wish tu face them either . bud i haf no choice . hais . pathetic . talk bout marhl mum , im sho disappointed in her . reali . y cant she stand up for herself or even me ? am i her daughter anot ? wher is her dignity ? who is she ? a failure and useless mum huh , perhaps . dun wan tu tok bout marhl mum anymore . it just bring tears bud nth is solved .
talking bout him , he dun haf any rights okie . who ish he to do this tu me . he is nobody tu me okie . i hate him tu the core . i wun forget wad he did tu me . hatred in marhl eyes when i see him , and tink uf wad he did . bud wad could i do . NOTHING . useless me . im feel so helpless now . pathetic . i just hope i could faster grow up and leave dis farking hus , and haf the freedom i wan it tu be . and so i nid not face dem . i feel tat i've lost everything . makes me feel lyfe is so miserable . hais . he make me hate guys onli . make me haf no trust in guys . dun expect me to trust guys tat much . cos im hurt bu guys . im willing tu give up or back out . cos im just so tired . so tired uf lyfe . see marhl mum so sad , it upsets me too . yoo hapi now right . yoo can have marhl mum all yoo wan . so i've reali lost everything . hais . + ms lonely `-